I've made my adoration of Roger Clemens no secret - he and Nolan Ryan are my baseball idols, he and Craig Biggio are the reason I fell in love with baseball, and he's also the primary reason I became a Red Sox fan in the first place. I may have been the only person in the U.S. who adored him because of his giant attitude, not in spite of it. But that's how I like my Texan pitchers- crazy good on the mound, with a hell of a lot of brashness and balls of steel.
In the wake of the Mitchell Report fallout, I have very purposely not written anything about Roger- not here, not at Ladies..., not at Babes Love Baseball. I've avoided addressing the subject in print because I'm utterly confused and conflicted, so I have had no clear perspective or opinion to offer. Losing Roger to retirement was difficult enough- but losing him under the cloud of suspicion that he's now exited with? Leaves me at a loss for words. The possibility that one of my greatest heroes was a fraud, for at least a period, is less like getting the rug pulled out from underneath and more like destroying the entire landscape of what I've known as "baseball". (<-- hyperbole alert!)
After watching Roger on Sixty Minutes tonight, I still can't sort through the mess. I can't decide if his repeated and strident denials cause me to believe him more... or if his weird fixation on Vioxx and dismissal of the validity of a lie detector cause me believe him less. I do know he is bitterly angry, and I am too. I just can't figure out if I'm angry at him, angry at McNamee, angry at the culture of steroids in baseball-- or angry at myself for being naive when it comes to my idols. Probably all of the above.
So this is the open forum/thread for everyone to discuss The Roger Situation (as I think I will now refer to this debacle) -- because even though I'm conflicted, it's still ludicrous not to talk about it. What did you think of the Sixty Minutes interview? Do you believe him now more, or less? And don't be worried if you think he's a big fat liar who got steroids shot in his butt every day since 1997, or if you aren't sure about the steroids thing but still hate his guts anyway- everyone is allowed to post... so long as you don't rip on him for being a Longhorn. Some things are just sacred.
EDIT: seems I'm not the only one conflicted after watching the interview- ESPN's Jerry Crasnick saw the same two Rogers we've been discussing in the comments.




on January 6, 2008 8:04 PM
I think he started to use them in Toronto. I think that his Boston years were rather clean even if that is a bit of a short sighted though but I think the combination of his stuff falling through and his lethargy with his workout regimen. I think he got into steroids with a bit of a "ehhh I dunno about it" thing and then just well got into it more.
I never liked Roger, for what its worth. I always thought of him as ingenuine and a jerkwad even when he was with the Red Sox. I may have been 10 or 11 when I first started to pay attention to baseball but I could smell a phony from a mile away. I wasn't able to see the interview, but I hear he basically was completely pissy and sweating bullets like a mofo.
Oh and don't beat yourself up on the whole feeling naive. I betcha dollars to donuts if Ortiz was ever named on there, every Red Sox fan would be the same way. But I also think that baseball is screwed if he was named.